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When I started writing this blog, I had big ambitions, and high hopes. I started this blog because organically I was writing at a pace so rampant that I felt like I was making big strides of growth in my work and I feel like I had to share this with the world. So why not create a method where I could distribute my own writing at my own pace, to whoever I felt worthy of reading it? Advertise it myself, and branch out to as many people as possible. So I create the blog, and I applaud you all who took the time out of your days and appreciated the content, I really spilled my heart on the page in those pieces...however I kept holding back feeling that I'd over saturate my readers and overwhelm them if I posted too much material too quickly. So as the days went to weeks, the ripple of feedback started to weaken and at first I was discouraged, I figured you know, maybe people aren't as interested as I thought...the only determinant I have is comments left. The more comments people leave, the more effective I felt my work connected, however in my time off from posting (I never stopped writing, never will) I realized there are external factors in the process, and my job as a writer, someone who writes because he loves it, is to keep producing, so I will make it my personal duty to post a new post at least once a day...I'm The Ant From Aesop...so if I hear sounds of the cricket in response to my outings, I'll understand it's not me.

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Everyday we, the general public, are subjected to the same useless newspaper stories, with the main objectives of moving units, and selling subscriptions. Irrelevant articles based on gang violence and celebrity drug addictions plague today's mainstream media. I think back to the times where the craft was used as a vice of expression, and I realize that the art of the personal essay has grown decrepit. I look back at the past great authors, and as I recall them...amongst my favorites are Hughes and Baldwin; true artists. Both resemble the kind of artist I'd like to be. Not just a writer, but an artist. The mind of Picasso, and the vision of a sniper...much more than just a writer...

Gregory Calvaire-The Ant From Aesop

Monday, April 28, 2008

We Grow Up

Sure enough, we grow up,
And the things that we used to love, no longer interest us,
Looking at the 3X tees, thinking: this Isn't me,
This is a fad that I adopted, trying to be,
In sync with the rest, now I try to separate myself from them,
Matter fact I’m not trying, it’s more like I am,
I’m trying new things, like green eggs and ham,
Not the engine that could, more like the engine that can,
Not trying to be like rappers, I’m trying to be like the men,
That wrote the constitution, and have institutions, named after them,
I’ll be real blunt, success is my drug, I’m addicted to it,
It was scripted in my future and I’m sticking to it,
No need to improvise, cause I know that I’m,
On my way to the top, long as the gun shops,
Watch who they sell they guns to,
And I don’t run into,
Some sick demented kid, what has this world come to,
SHOCKING NEWS:
Over thirty shot in school!


I just don’t get it,
I try to go to sleep at night, and I wake up sweating,
Cause the thought of one altering other peoples fates,
With all the killings and rapes,
And all the terrorist plots, shows that no one is safe,
But still…I work hard, accumulate that money in the bank,
And bitter dudes talk about me, that doesn’t even fuel my tank,
It used to, but by now I’m too used to, their childish ways,
I’ve grown up a lot, since my childish days...

28 comments:

Anonymous said...

its unfortunate because unlike u some people dont mature with age... keep doing ur thing man

Anonymous said...

its ashame because some people dont mature wit age... it jus goes to show wat a sad state this world is coming to...

Anonymous said...

I got 1 word WOW lol
but seriously this is really good, its like something i'd read in O'Leary's class =P

Anonymous said...

WOW this is really good, its like something i'd read in O'Leary's class!!! no joke

Anonymous said...

Yea its crazy how other human beings can determine our fate and that our lives are in the hands of another other than God

Modern Day Hughes said...

honestly i don't know which matured more: your ability as a writer, or just you as a person. I personally think it's a tie, because both increased greatly, and the scary thing is: you haven't even reached the pinnacle of your game.

Anonymous said...

yea, its crazy cause its like we're living in a place where no1's ever safe..but no1 acknowledge it. The poor something think about it, & the rich dont care..they're livin the "good life" & feel dats all that matters..keep writing.

Anonymous said...

def feelin this poem...so true. ur really doin ur thing.

Stepn

Claring said...

I remember this, and it still remains wonderful to this day.

Anonymous said...

This poem is the truth.
I think alot of people, including myself, can identify with the thought process that you were going through when you wrote this. I think many of us go through that stage where you just want to be in the "in" crowd and then when we grow out of that phase, we realize that there is so much more to life than simply fitting in; we realize that it is so much better to be ourselves and make a difference- regardless of what those haters have to say.
i loved it

Anonymous said...

fucking dope. sky's the limit yo

Anonymous said...

Im def feeling this man...who always found a way to make ya writing creative and very unique with crazy metaphors and exhilirating thoughts and vocab...keep doin ya thing

Anonymous said...

I love your writing style. I can see that you've wrote from your from inner self. maturity sure is a wide concept, yet, it seems like you've managed to know what you want out of life and where you're going in life.
I'd love to read more of your stuff (that may not be published on your blog)

Anonymous said...

real talk...many are so quick to call someone immature yet they neglect to take a look in the mirror...

Anonymous said...

Its genuine and from the heart, you can never go wrong with that. great stuff

Anonymous said...

This poem is definetly true to the heart and very touching damn u are a really good writer one more thing we have in common is writing cause I have journals since I was in junior high school keep doing ur thing

Sammy said...

This shows how us youth learn from our experiences to make us the people we are today. This work of literature was well structured and written. Its good to know someone learned something from english.

Anonymous said...

I am really feelin what u are sayin... keep doin u

Anonymous said...

I feel you on this one. We all have to grow up some day and we realize all the stupid stuff we were into back in the day, hold absolutely no value. Sometimes I wish I could freeze time and stay young though because "ignorance is bliss." Before you get into that grown mentality..your not worrying about school shootings or your future career..your dependent on someone else to guide you..your parents..the leader of the crowd your chilling with, but when you grow up..you realize you have to be yourself and do you. Some kids become followers and groupies nd others become leaders. I commend you for being a leader. =]

Anonymous said...

I love your insight; growing up is about change, going with the crowd and then distancing yourself once you have found out who to truly are and what you truly want. It’s like we are constantly responding to our world and our selves. This, from what I’ve gathered from my own experience, is what life is. But I have a couple of questions for you: can we ever do anything more than just respond, someone once told me that “the men who run this world cannot live in it,” or as he furthered explained, the men who are affecting change seldom ever have the opportunity or experience and enjoy the change they brought to everyone else. What do you think about it?

Anonymous said...

playa it's deep, you still on it, it feels good to see that we started somethin that you took to the next level, im on it still too, but jus in a different direction i see you doing ya thing link up wit me - Solomon S

Anonymous said...

this is a great poem you speaking the truth, keep writing about how you feel bro and good things are going to come out of it.
but yo keep up the good work

Anonymous said...

As long as we are living together and depending on each other, our lives will always remain connected so everyone needs to overcome the fear of being harmed by the people around us. There are good and bad people in every part of the world, which is something that simply won't change. If you try to make everyone conform to laws of one society, then you lose diversity and "1984" is a potential result.

Also, death doesn't come with a notice so make the most of what we have now.

Anonymous said...

Excellent start! I'm impressed. Keep it up with the material and the truth. You have the potential to make a difference with the truth that you display and the effective way in which you do it.

Unknown said...

this is deep. keep it up mah dude, good stuffb

Anonymous said...

I love it!! It's so true that when we grow older, we mature and our values, interests, wants and needs change. The poem is great, maybe if you could tweak your ending a little, that would be good. Seeing as how the first stanza and second stanza are a bit different, you could maybe add a couple of more lines after "their childish ways" and before the last line to really bring home your point. But as always, your work is PHENOMENAL!! :) It's such a relief how you see people you grew up with continue to do big things!

The Ant From Aesop said...

Nah kimbo...I actually cut off the end of the poem for certain reasons...this poem was written in highschool, so certain things don't need to be said anymore, but if you get your hand on the original you'd understand

Anonymous said...

nicely said. with everything thats going on in the world you'd think more teens and even adults would really give a care & put themselves in a position to make the world a little safer... its a shame. everyone is so busy trying to 'get fresh' that they dont take time to understand that the economy is in its worse shape then ever before. instead we fight each other after school and smoke pot cause theres supposibly nothing better to do. parents are all getting laid off and the dollar bill aint stretchin like it used to..but that wont stop the youth from standing in line to spend hard earned cash on the lastest iphone or hooking up with their "prada" connects. lol. oooh man sometimes im ashamed to be an american. i mean we all have the same 24 hours in a day but some people chose to do and learn nothing with all that valuable time!

keep them coming...these are really interesting